Approximately 25% of the people in my blogroll* suffer from some form of depression. Those are the ones I know of because I’ve seen them write about it. It’s possible that statistic is higher.

So I want to be clear about something because it’s easy to read a post about someone in a slump and think “depression.”

I do not and have never suffered from depression. So don’t try to medicate me.

That said, I’m in a slump right now.

For the most part, I live my life in anticipation. I’m constantly looking forward to something, in the middle of accomplishing something or searching for something specific. It motivates me. This characteristic reveals itself in the myriad of projects I undertake for the sheer delight in producing something. Whether it be via work, online, crafting, whatever…there is always something I’m planning, researching, undertaking, creating, whatever.

I don’t have anything going right now. I don’t have anything that has sparked my interest enough to say, “I want to do THAT.”

And it’s kind of depressing. In the non-clinical sense. I’m missing the spark that usually drives me through life so quickly. And suddenly things are…dull. And I’m not motivated. And I’m bored with the things that usually interest me.

Sigh.

Here’s hoping my next scheme/idea/project/desire will pop up soon.

*BTW, take a look at my new blogroll - I’ve made some changes!  I got tired of the boring and nonpersonal nature of blogroll lists.

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